Thank you to everyone for your support.
It seems I am a soppy drunk haha.
I am overwhelmed by all the comments, I truly thank you all from the bottom of my heart.
I know I will be ok, I love a slot session and it used to be something I would have turned to in dark times but me posting on here last night seemed to have suppressed the urge to throw what little money I do have into the casinos pockets.
D4P, I am very sorry to hear about your loss, thank you for the kind words.
I feel slightly embarrassed for posting but the feed back has comforted me.
Thank you all