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29th March 2019 at 12:09 pm #58224
Addiction exists, Everything is OK in moderation and its down to the individual to change, no one else.
Sometimes, for reasons unknown to myself I will gamble way more than I should, and don’t win. The casino existing makes this possible, but is it their fault? No, it’s mine.
every day I buy a minimum of a four pack from my local shop.. The Indian guy sells them to me everyday sometimes 8 sometimes 16, is it his fault that I have a drinking problem? No, I’m an adult and am making my own bad decisions.
On the flip side there are people who enjoy a drink every now and again and an affordable flutter on the slots and have no negative consequences, does my bad behavior mean they shouldn’t be allowed to enjoy it responsibley? Because it’s availability might fuck people like me up? No. We all need to take responsibility for our actions regardless how painful it is to admit that you and no-one else spent a month’s wages in 20mins or drank so much you blacked out and end up in court. Its still your fault. Its hard to accept your own fuck ups and its so much easier to blame others but we all have them, we all need to take ownership of them. At that point and only that point can you begin to rebuild.
For context I’m an ex drug addict, borderline alcoholic and a compulsive gambler, I understand the beast and I battle it as best I can.
This post hit home with me a lot especially the last paragraph. I’ve not managed to curb any of the three addictions mentioned and at times do lose control of one or more of them.
Only I can change it, there’s help and guidance out there of course but it’s on me to choose not to have the bet or take a swig.
It’s a struggle mate, it really is but the only way is up.. This time last year I was coming off benzos, oxy and Charlie, cutting my drink and expecting a prison sentence.. I’ve now not touched any drugs (except pot) I still drink too much but not way way too much and I’m not going to jail lol.
I found I often swap one addiction for another and go round in circles, in the end I upped and moved cities to change, that and drinking non alcoholic beer helped a lot.. Gambling though I find so much harder as its a very lonely addiction, something friends mostly don’t understand and you do on your own.
If you ever need a chat mate feel free to ask bandit or seedy for my email any time..
30th March 2019 at 11:53 am #58393Addiction exists, Everything is OK in moderation and its down to the individual to change, no one else.
Sometimes, for reasons unknown to myself I will gamble way more than I should, and don’t win. The casino existing makes this possible, but is it their fault? No, it’s mine.
every day I buy a minimum of a four pack from my local shop.. The Indian guy sells them to me everyday sometimes 8 sometimes 16, is it his fault that I have a drinking problem? No, I’m an adult and am making my own bad decisions.
On the flip side there are people who enjoy a drink every now and again and an affordable flutter on the slots and have no negative consequences, does my bad behavior mean they shouldn’t be allowed to enjoy it responsibley? Because it’s availability might fuck people like me up? No. We all need to take responsibility for our actions regardless how painful it is to admit that you and no-one else spent a month’s wages in 20mins or drank so much you blacked out and end up in court. Its still your fault. Its hard to accept your own fuck ups and its so much easier to blame others but we all have them, we all need to take ownership of them. At that point and only that point can you begin to rebuild.
For context I’m an ex drug addict, borderline alcoholic and a compulsive gambler, I understand the beast and I battle it as best I can.
This post hit home with me a lot especially the last paragraph. I’ve not managed to curb any of the three addictions mentioned and at times do lose control of one or more of them.
Only I can change it, there’s help and guidance out there of course but it’s on me to choose not to have the bet or take a swig.
It’s a struggle mate, it really is but the only way is up.. This time last year I was coming off benzos, oxy and Charlie, cutting my drink and expecting a prison sentence.. I’ve now not touched any drugs (except pot) I still drink too much but not way way too much and I’m not going to jail lol.
I found I often swap one addiction for another and go round in circles, in the end I upped and moved cities to change, that and drinking non alcoholic beer helped a lot.. Gambling though I find so much harder as its a very lonely addiction, something friends mostly don’t understand and you do on your own.
If you ever need a chat mate feel free to ask bandit or seedy for my email any time..
Appreciate that mate thanks. It’s the powder for me as well so you’ll know where I’m at.
Started seeing a girl who’s trying to help so hopefully I can turn it round but as said before, I have to want to change or it won’t work.
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