The best advice is to change your ways and retrain the brain and try forget about all aspects of gambling, that includes watching videos, going on forums, its a personal opinion but I don’t for a minute believe people can stop gambling and get the buzz out of someone else winning.
Also if u tell your wife/partner the trust will be the hardest thing to gain, share all the details with her and explain its an addiction, let her see u go on gamban, go to ga meetings, they are a lot better than forums etc
Best of luck 