I have definitely fallen of the wagon and I can relate to what you are saying, I can’t seem to stay away.
The situation I am in right now is that I have £1.60 to last me until Friday, I have no food.
Sorry to be so down in this reply I am just a bit sad right now, on the plus side I have just seen that the bandit has put up a new video so will get stuck right into that 🙂