Back 8 years ago when all gambling started , I used to go with my friends at gala bingo to play bingo , 2 out of 10 times we won something. After few times, in the brake between, I started to play few quids at the slots machine , and I remember that first big win was around £70 and I was so excited. The slots payed the money in £1 coin and the excitement was big as I had a full hand of money 
.. After that , bingo was not interesting me anymore and I was going there only to play slots. I’ve been lucky at the beginning, I always walked away with profit, but then rapidly luck gone out and start losing quick. Usually on a payday , first stop was the at the slots, I’ve been there for a long time , just to play and hope to get the jackpot … which as far I remember I never got it from gala bingo, and always walked away empty pockets. This went on for a while till I saw a friend playing roulette on bookies, I was watching him playing and one day I saw an advertise at labrokes , if you register online you get £15 or £ 20 ( can’t remember) real money to play without deposit . That money had 30x wagering required. So I registered and played and went playing a game that looked very good and paying. So again I was lucky enough to wager that money and had a £300 balance , I was playing all night and I couldn’t believed I won 300 without no deposit, so next morning I went into the shop and withdrew the money. That game hooked me big time , The moment it start spinning I could almost predict if was a win or not, anyway I started playing only that game and looked very profitable if you took the risk, so I started playing big . I started from £0,60 and ended up £12.50 . Then first time I played £12.50 , after £300 spend, it gave me a bonus win of £2300 and then right away another one £2700 . I remember by the end of that day I had a balance of £6000 , so I withdrew the max amount of £5000. The next day I lost on the same game the rest on £1000. When the money clear in to my bank I start playing the game and won £ 2000 and withdrew and stop playing. So I was around £7000 profit . Then the following days …. you can imagine, out of £ 7000 I took out from cash machine £500 I believe and the rest gone back gambling, with no win to make me stop. Lost all the money then the hard part came. Every payday , make deposits and play and loose. Worked a full week to play for couple hours and lost everything. I had a very hard time after that big win, then after a while, went back to slots machines. Had few jackpots wins , and that happened ONLY when I had few quid with me and played £20. If I walked in with £50 I was more likely to be out profit, then walked in with £500 and walked away with nothing. I can’t figure out now how the hell is this always is happening, I presume when I got less I play more responsibly then when I got a lot more. So I kept playing slots at bookies till I had few months which I literally spend all my wages in a matter of couples hours. I remember going Friday into William hill at 4:30 with 4-500 in and by 6 I only had left 20 in my pocket. That went again for 3-4 months. I was chasing my loosing.i went broke quick and in debt . Then the online gambling boom happened and lots of online casino opened . Ladbrokes changed the website games and could not play that game anymore so I looked on other sites for that game. So I opened accounts to every possible casino in uk , and played each one , with no one seemed to pay anything , till I played on videoslots. I opened the account in 2017 , it seemed ok, let’s say I spend £1000 in one month and by the end of the month I’ve withdrew £2000 in total. So i kept playing only on videoslots , because it seemed to pay back eventually. I’ve had few big wins , going from first win £ 1200 on £1 bet to £1600 . The most I won on £1 bet on Knight life , £1600 . On bet sides. So I was obsessed with this game and I wanted to win big on different stakes above £1 and never won. I think i wagered thousands on this game and lost a lot and never win big above £1 stake. Every time I win big on different games I was going back to knight life slot and loose everything, and that happened 3 times loosing £2-3000 on £5-10 stake. So the first half year at videoslots I had , let’s say double my deposits in profit, then for the other half year I was only on loosing streak . I could not win anything bigger than x200 and even that was hard to hit. Then after a year things gone back to normal and start to win , again the same , overall double my deposits , literally mirrored the year before and back again on loosing streak . This time the winnings came fast , I had like £3000 twice in matter in few days . I usually play £1-2 per stake , and if I win raise to £3-4 . I only played that game on higher stakes and always lost. Well gambling went out of control after been in months of losing, and when I won , kept playing and lost it . I last had £2000 win , only with £100 in , and lost it and keep deposit , so by the end of the day I was £800 in. So i was at a point that no win could make me stop playing and withdrew something . After 1,6 years at videoslots, I was £1000 down and after 2 years £11000 down. I had few wins and lost it again and decided to register to gamestop and stop gambling online. When I played online, I didn’t look interested to play slots at bookies , but now after I’ve self excluded myself online, I start going back to bookies and not going well. Been three times now and lost around £1000 so far. It’s hard because I say in my mind, I’m going in only to play £20-40 and end up loosing everything, and I know if I win I never get back what I lost before as the jackpot is max £500. It’s hard to stay away from any form of gambling, I mean I can not gambling for 2-3 months, but when I do gambling I loose the lot I save in that 2-3 months. Any advice how should I stay away from gambling or anyone made a success of not gambling anymore?!
